A poem

I am bad when it comes to poems that too specially in english.. but here is a small poem i came up with today...

they say, life is this and life is that
i think it is what you give and get...

they say, life is there in Gandhi's deed
i see, life is also there in Hitler's greed...

they say, Life is there in God's idol, made of clay..
but I saw life in poor child's foodless day..

they say life is simple, just sitback and relax..
i now know its all about you and your Acts.

they say life is in what you are and what you got, too
but, Finally I realized life is actually what i am going through..

: )

Honesty

I came across a weird incident today. It was weird because it was like excitement, joy, disappointment, and guilt everything mixed in one pack..

So one of my friend who knows that i am quite good at computers told me that his old neighbor was having some problem with his PC. i told him i could help him but i would take 100 bucks, market rate is 300 bucks by the way..!! now lemme clarify that i told him about the money just because i didn't want to be available all the time... I mean there are a lot of people who call me when they need technical assistance in this sort of things but i don't want to be doing it for free always, considering my relations with people i just get things done with the fees of one "thank you" but sometimes its to much... Right now i have three CPU boxes at my place which i am suppose to repair with no fees whatsoever.. So coming back to the point, for the first time i went to this person's home with intention of making money, which was "exciting"..I took a look at  PC, and the only solution according to my knowledge was reinstalling the entire operating system which would take almost an hour, and furthermore i would have required to install all the softwares again. I tried to figure out an alternate and appropriate solution with no luck which was "disappointing". meanwhile another person whom Mr.Rana(the person with Problem PC) had called two days before for the same problem, came. He didn't come for two days therefore Mr. Rana had called me... this late lateef person is a professional hardware engineer, he didn't really have any degree, but his father taught me everything related to PC..he is distant relative of Mr. Rana so he gets things done for free, the only problem is that he is never not time...anyways he told me the solution is just a small trick... I just let him do it and he did it in no time... here came the "guilt" of not being able to do it... afterwards when i was leaving the house Mr. Rana handed me 100 bucks, i resisted realizing that i wasn't the one who solved the Error but he still put it in my pocket saying it was for my efforts... Here comes the "joy" you get when people appreciate you no matter you succeeded or not.....


Thank you Mr. rana, it was pleasure meeting you!! I am gonna save this 100 bucks always..

An Image..!

I clicked this image on my way to Ajmer from train window. And somehow this image is very special for me. It gives me calming and soothing vibes...its so awesome when you are looking out of the window looking at things running backwards...!

When i see this image i feel how crowded place we live in. whenever i get out of my house i see people walking, running for their works. Nobody has time for true life.. Globalization has made us more than busy and the time we get is just spent on facebook etc... i asked myself what was the last time i went to my neighbours to say "Hi", what was the last time i told my mom "I love you", what was the last time i had a long log conversations with my friends apart from Fb and Texts... the answer is quite a long time ago...

Just look at this place in the image, i cant see a single person till the horizon.... I  wish i could forget everything and live somewhere like this...!!

What would i do if i was there??

Today i saw the movie Carriers. Its about 4 friends trying to survive in a world devastated by a deadly virus. First i thought it would be some those silly zombie movie where the virus turns the people into a horrible creature feeding on flesh... but this movie was different it shows how relations and love between people are tasted in extreme situation. Few moments touched me deeply. specially when one of the actors lefts his girlfriend whom he loves by all his heart coz she is infected, when a guy shoots his older brother to relive his pain. etc.

The movie is over and i am left with thoughts running all over my brain.. what would i do if i am in such situation? what would i choose if i had to....would the basic morals i have been taught all my life would still bind me or i will.......!!!!!!!!!!

Trying to be BAD...!!!

I know the tittle seems very weird. who wants to become bad?? and even if they are trying for it, posting it on a public blog seems foolish..isnt it?? But yea seriously i believe i have been "GOOD" all my life. my problem is not being good but being good more than required makes you look weaker. I am not saying all this just because of one experience but actually i have had few times when i realized i am getting USED...!!! here i want to write about few of the experiences i have had from some SICK personalities...!

1st ) I helped him a lot when he needed someone badly, i gave him all the time i had in vacations(when i could have go enjoying, traveling and gaming, instead) but now he thinks i am arrogant, self-centered, and completely unhelpful person who cant help someone without his personal interests... i am getting treated like this by him may be coz i was little bit more helpful to him before??

2) i always thought hes a good person, a good student if not a good friend then at least a good classmate.. i never tried to make fun of him. i never tried to bully him either like most of the people do... well its not that i am not good at teasing and teasing a LOSER like him is not a tough thing to do also...lol...but i always respect people no matter how they are, how they look, what race they are or any other barriers this human society has made..!!! but just think how it feels when the person whom you always supported when things were against him tells you SHUT-THE-FUCK-UP..!!!! That too when you were actually responding to his one of the silly questions he asks people making him look like mental patient .Instead i could have just ignored answering his question like most people do with him...!!!!!!! All my life i had never faced such harsh and rude comments from anyone...he told me all this shitt may be coz i was more den GOOD with him to begin with???



(FYI hes just a LOSER who has got no life whatsoever.. sometime he behaves like a psycho.. and i am gonna punch him in the face if he says something like this again)

3) I had this friend in my school whom people used to bully to often.. i stood by him and helped him face the situation... after few months he was talking to one person, he thought i was out of the class that time... but he didn't know i was seating at the last bench that time.. so his lines were "Akif is f**ing Muslim, whom i wont even see in my life once the school is over"....this was coz may be i was more supporting than i should be???
(I pity on this sick racist)

there are few others i wanted to write but i am hungry and i want to eat something badly...lol
but i am gonna be bad for all the bad.. and good for all the good.. :) CHEERS...!!!!

After a long time... That too on my Birthday...

Yea i know its been quite long since i wrote here...i don't think people will actually read this so it doesn't matter anyways...So the Reason why i am writing on this blog is today is my BIRTHDAY... from several days i was planning about the things i wanted to do today but i got fever and cold along with severe muscular pain and now i am writing this at the time when i should be out there enjoying and partying...

but honestly the thing which i missed the most was being a BIRTHDAY BOY in the college...The feeling which you get when your college friends are wishing you personally shaking hands with you or patting your back is just superb...but unfortunately i missed the fun being with friends on the day of my birthday... though i am happy that i have got lots of wishes through Email, Texts, and Fb so far..!!!



I don't know if my friends are ever going to read this.. but thank you all those who wished me from the bottom of my heart....

yea i forgot to wish myself.....:D so here it goes...
Akif, Happy bday to you.. many many happy returns of the day...!!